So, it's been a long ass time since the last I used this DA Thing.
I've lost motivation.
Everything is crashing infront of me.

I have my health..Atleast I think, I should try quitting smokes.
And friends are dying, and hurtting.
And I'm getting sucked into a world of fake people, along with fake emotions.
Gawd, I'm fuckin' emotional..
But I'm not the scene..
I just get hurt easy..
Which is fuckin' lame.
'Cause some people are stronger and I guess I'm just weak.
And anything can hurt my stupid feelings.

Love sucks.
V-day sucked ass.
Along with all this other shit that has been going on.
I don't even know what I want in my life anymore..
I had so many dreams.
So many ideas..
And now..
It's like they are FUCKED.
And I'm just lost and confused.
The thing is.
I'm doing this to myself.
It's easy to tell people shut the fuck up and fix your life.
But when it happens to you..
It's a different story.
Everyone has their personal background and personality or whatever.
I don't even know who I am anymore.

I should draw more.
I should make something of it.
Like I've been saying.
But instead all I'm doing is bitching and crying.
Just thinking its gonna fall into my life out of no where.
Well, it's not.
I have to go out there and do something.